Tuesday, May 09, 2006
That nurse reminds me of someone. The blur look on her face and the seriousness in her work.
I guess I really miss her that much. It is probably that combination that attract me to her initially I guess. Or was it the way she chose to help people in her holy white uniform.
Been like 7 months since I last saw her, still everyday when I walk past the bus stop I fetch her from, I will always check and double check to see if she is there. I know it will not happen but still I hope for a fairy tale ending. Whenever the bus she used to took pass by me, I will always eagerly peer into it, hoping to get a glimpse of her. Hoping she will come and look for me.
But no till to date. Everytime I get a call or a sms, I always hope and pray that it is from her but all the time it always been negative. I know she will not reply me nor call me but still I message her every now and then hoping that one day she will reply.
Every night, the slightest movement will send me running to the door and peer out of the peep hole, hoping I can see her. She hates me too much that I do not really wish to find her and make her angry once again.
Sometime I have this thought, how I wish I meet an accident or maybe get some bad ass illness. Maybe then she will come and take a last look at me. Or at least that is what I thought would happen.
What good are fantastic grades for my degree or money from my business, if I cannot share what I achieve with the one I love. Everyday the only thing that pushes me forward is the hope that one day she will come back to me. That is why without fail I try to knock off on time from work and hang around the bus stop, hoping she will alight from the bus and I will be the first one to see her.
I slowly losing my memories, that is why I have to blog. So one day when she come back, I will know what to tell her and how i really feel. Her birthday is round the corner, I really hoping for a miracle to happen.
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