Saturday, June 03, 2006
8th sms and still no reply, sometime I really wonder should I just give up. But I still remember then she ask me why I never go after her initally. She was so frustrated with my answer then, I told her because when I asked if she would want a boyfriend she said she wanted to wait until after university before going into the relationship. That is how I gave up, pretty dumb eh but sometime I really wonder if I should listen to others. Many of my friends told me it is more gentlemenly to respect her wish, but I would say bullshit I guess. Seriously, because of that she had doubted that I am serious about her, after all if you really like a person why would you wait for 5 years or if the other side matters why would u let her wait for 5 years.
I told myself, maybe this time I have to wait for her for another 5 years, maybe our fate will finally meet. All my friends say I am dumb, but sometime I really do think it is indeed dumb after all she is not speaking to me at all. But still I waited, many was shocked indeed for me to be single for so long. I tried to fall for others but somehow the feeling was never the same. The longing that far exceed my threshold, the desire just to see her everyday.
None of my friend actually believe I am waiting for her, "gosh" I mean they always call me playboy and how can that link with someone who waited for his ex for more than 6 months. Staying at home and staring at the phone for reply, dazing away in class and not to mention jump out of bed in the middle of night thinking the phone rang. Even my others ex who talked to me was amazed at my change, many asked me who exactly she is. All of them think she is a beauty or something for me to be so obssess with her. I do have her pix but I never wanted to give to others. For I feel that she might be a simple girl but to me she is my eternity. Someone I feel that I can live forever with, I really wonder how she is now? Sigh.
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