Saturday, June 03, 2006
Ever remember the time in army, they say it is all in your mind?
I always wanted to reply if that is true, then I probably can fly.
Ok never mind I did not exactly do that, who wants to send something so dumb just to get extra. But sometime it is possible to do things beyond ur limit by controlling your mind, look at those people who were so fit and ran till they died. Yes, true enough we can break our limit but once it pass our safe threshold we might just die.
For me, I just did that. I tell myself if I score well in examination, she will come back to me. I tell myself if I can perform well in field camp despite my injuries, she will come back to me. I managed to survive through my camp with my back injuries with nearly no sleep due to the intense pain just because I hope to see her when I come back home. I got distinction after distinction, hoping to see her eventually. But nope never did, hopes are losing but still everyday I fought hard hoping that one day when she return to me she can enjoy the fruit of my hardwork.
Slowly and surely maybe all those controlling of my mind and pushing to the limit, I experiencing serious memory lost. Maybe it is good that I forget everything now, so i can start refresh without her but the thought of it is so painful that I noted down everything I can about her before the images start fading.
For those who knows me, yes I am forgetful but now it is becoming worst, so if one day I did nt say "hi". I did not really mean it, i probably lost that part of my memories.
10:31 PM
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